I feel your hands in my hair.
I feel your breath on my neck.
I feel your body pressed so close to mine.
I feel your lips on my throat.
I feel your hands move to my back and your lips work their way up to mine.
I feel you and I love it.
I hear you say you love me.
I hear you whisper my name.
I hear you tell me I'm the only one for you.
I hear your breath in my ear.
I hear your soft snores as I fall asleep.
I hear you and I love it.
I see you as I run into your arms.
I see your face break through my world of darkness.
I see you fight away my fears.
I see you wipe away my tears.
I see you're in love with me.
I see you and I love
Well, you're not anorexic. So you must be fat.
A fat, ugly person.
Well, you fit in with the crowd. You must be a fake.
A fake wannabe.
Well, you're happy. What are you hiding?
You've got to be hiding something.
Well, you're sad. You must be emo.
An emo attention seeker.
Well, you're popular. So you must be a jerk.
Why would anyone like you in the first place?
Well, you're quiet. You must be a nobody.
Nobody at all.
Well, you're you.
What else could go wrong?
Caressing flames char my flesh,
climbing their way past the split ends of my hair;
incinerating them, small embers reaching for my scalp-
spindly scorching fingers dashing through dark strands.
Others may allow screams to fall from their mouths
or pleas to escape from dry, chapped lips;
perhaps letting sodden tears crawl from their ducts,
yet, not I.
Righteous flames lick the soles of my feet-
lies fly from my lips
while my ears collect half-truths
both in agreement with my mind; a denial of Him
blood falls from my hands in scarlet rivulets
my thoughts rumble within the bowels of lust
hatred spun with threads of humanity, lies b
I'm sitting silent; in my room,
Basking in my constant gloom,
You point and laugh at my cracked back,
At what you have and what I lack.
How easy it'd be to take your life,
to slit your porcelain throat with my knife.
To light you on fire, my idol queen,
After showering you with gasoline.
To think that when things go dull,
I think of peeling that face of your skull,
And every time you call me a whore,
I resist the urge to spill your guts on the floor.
So laugh and point; doesn't bother me!
For even I am laughing at how you don't see
How lucky you are that I hide in my gloom,
That i'm just sitting here, silent; in my room.
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